Leave the Peices When You Go

Heart break. It is something we are all forced to deal with. Some how I feel like I deal with it way more than I should. I saw a guy I am erratically in love with today. Somehow, I just can't seem to get over him, though I should. We cheated on each other, so there are trust issues between us, but today he came to my school, to see me. I hugged him as tight as I possibly could, and we even kissed. When I got onto my bus I was so happy, so estatic that I couldn't contain myself, Now thinking about it, I doubt we will ever be together, because of those reasons. Than this guy, I never know how I feel about him, ever. One minute I am falling head over heels the next I am so mad at him. He tells me that there is noone who likes him and that he is useless. All I can say is "WHAT ABOUT ME! I LIKE YOU, I WANT TO BE WITH YOU! I THINK YOU ARE SOMETHING!" Then he tells me he likes my friends. i get so eratically pissed.off at him. I am terrified of telling him because I don't want lose him, but what else is a girl to do. I'm so fucked and i am just being lead around, my heart shattered in peices and being scrambled everywhere.

Teenage Dream

I am done, I mean I know I am a pretty privalaged child, but I am sick of this. We were going out and stupid me was trying to be a fucking ninja and my new fucking iTouch goes flying out of my purse onto the concrete and the glass in front of the screen is now cracked and I have to figure something out because I refuse to keep a brand new iTouch that is all fucking cracked. Then we head down to a silver place because my mom wanted to sell her silver to get a little extra cash. We were expecting anywhere from 500 to 50000 dollars. Nope. We might be lucky to get 200 dollars. Now we can't pay our fucking car payment and the odds of going to Disney for my sixteenth birthday is pretty much screwed. Way to get my hopes up. I just want it to work out, I want to get at least one thing.

Lying is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have

Things are going pretty great right now. I am on top of all of my school work. I have been allowed to drive every day of every weekend and everymorning to school. My mom and I have been spending all weekend looking at things for Disney, we are planning to go for my sixteenth birthday and we are taking my best friend Bekah as a Disney virgin. I am so excited and cannot wait. We will probably be staying at a value resort with is one of the lowest ones you can stay at but the magic of even on of those is incredible. I am just so estatic to go. I haven't been in a few years and it's well over due. The only sad thing about it is that my brother probably wont be coming and usually on the last night at Magic Kingdom he acts so goofy and simple it is so funny, he walks up to random people and say random things, he acts like a statue, and it's just so much fun. I am enjoying  enjoying everything right now. I like how my life is for the moment, I think the only thing missing is a nice social life and a good guy or a few good guys that I am into and who is into me. Well in all technicalities my first week of school of the year is over and I only have twenty more to go, then I am done with high school and ready for college. I will have so much more freedom at college then i do now and I am just so ready and so excited.