Bluebird

Well it's been a long while since I wrote. I didn't win science fair, but I did get a 93 and I was pretty happy with that. The one guy that I liked that had the girlfriend and said he didn't like me like that, well I am over him, I really am, he is just my friend. The one that gave me a ride, well he likes a friend of mine and in the past i would have blown up and gotten pissed I am okay with it, they only thing blowing up would do would make myself miserable. My ex, well that is a completely different story. He is a good guy and has a good heart and he is back to the guy that I fell in love with. I don't understand what to do.
My uncle and Cousins came up for a weekend. I swear I have never been told I was wrong so many times in such a short amount of time. They would even tell me I was wrong about something I knew all about and they knew nothing about and sometimes they would tell me I was wrong rephrase what I said and say it. It was so exhausting.
Christmas, well it just never felt like Christmas. it makes me sad because I love Christmas. We went up to MD and I got to see a lot of my family. I even got surprised when my favorite cousin, Michael showed up. I got some great things too, my favorite, my ipod touch. I enjoyed myself but it just seemed like a random visit up to MD and I wanted a Christmas visit.

Let it Rain

So Today was the lovely Science Fair at school. Apparently my judge loved my bored and all the Freshman voted for it. I'm kind of impressed if that were true because I did all of that in one weekend. SHAMPOOCH! Haha, sorry that is an insider I have with one of the freshies. Part of me would be really excited if I got a chance to go to county or even state, but part of me would want to decline. I have never been a fan of science fair, in fact i despise it, and as nice as it would be to win, I don't want to because I want it to be over, if i didn't win, I would never have to do science fair again.
So there are some...complications in my life at the moment. There are two boys at school, that I like, quite a bit. Their best friends. One has a girlfriend now, and says he doesn't like me, but I think today, I got over him. I like him, still, but I think he would just be a good friend. But his friend is someone I care about a lot. Today he had a bad day and I felt like I was the only one who noticed. He also gave me a ride home and I enjoied the time spent with him. He is a good guy and I like him a lot, i kind of always have. But here is one of my main problems, My ex. We were togather, kind of in a way after we broke up, but it was never a thing because of his girlfriend. Now call me a slut if your want, i don't care, I loved--love him. Well we have been talking again recently and he has been saying what seems to be all the right things. I feel like I am falling for him, but I don't want to go back there because somethings with him aren't good memories. UGH being a girl sucks!
Oh my the freshies, well a first happened at my school, a fight. One freshie posted on Gmail that another freshies boyfriend wasn't cute. So the two of them started fighting and well apparently there was a fist fight. SOOO FUNNY! haha!

You got a fast car

Wow it has been quite some time since I have last written and a lot has happened, well not totally. I have gotten royally pissed off. Now ya'll know that I go to an early college and you would expect the people who go to a school like that to be a little more mature, and know right from wrong. Well apparently they don't. I am on the Yearbook and I was assigned the page called "You know you go to this school when..." well I had gotten permission from my teacher and my principle to hang posters up to get what the other students thought into the yearbook, but some kids decided to be stupid and put rude, crule, and racist comments. I had a teacher specifically bring me a poster that had these comments on it and tell me I better be cautious about these posters. Then at lunch I was just loosing my mind and went off and got a confession that he put one of those rude comments up. Later at my last period people were gathering around a poster and a teacher was fussing at them. I went to that teacher also my supervisor and just took them down, then from these little bitches in my class started screaming at me. All I could think was well maybe if some people wouldn't put rude things up it wouldn't be ruined for everyone, so not my fault. Now on the flip side of things on Friday my mom and I went to DMV because it was time that I applied for my permit. After a long wait I took the test and passed. I am now driving and have been given the option to drive all weekend and I have enjoyed every minute of it.