Somebody's Hearbreak

Well I suppose that the title is perfect for this post, but I will start with some light things first.
I started my new semester a few weeks ago all is going well. There is this boy in my Creative Writing class and I don't know what is going on and whether he may or may not be interested in me, mixed signals I suppose. There is this other boy who is in both my Math class and my History class and I don't know if I should make a move or just get over myself. Then I ask myself if its worth putting myself out there or if I should just wait I mean I am sixteen and these people are like eighteen nineteen.  I just, this is jealous all over, but my best friend has a boyfriend, a perfect boyfriend, he loves her, she loves him, and they would do anything for each other. I wanted her and I to go to junior prom together, but thats not fair if she has a boyfriend and I mean I don't see them breaking up or anything but what if something happens between now and next prom, she would have missed out on the perfect night with that perfect guy and not to mention that it would be awkward for me to go to her prom, i mean everyone there hates me, so why put myself in a miserable place. Her friend this guy I have been talking to, he isn't really my type but he can be cute at times and sweet the only problem is he is  hung up on her and I don't want to think about being with a guy who is hung up on my best friend.
I think her and I are growing apart. I knew it would probably happen at some point but other than her I have no friends. End of freshman year I broke a friendship that would have probably lasted had I not been so jealous. I guess when I am making friends or meeting people I act like a know it all or I try to be someone I am not or I act like a little kid, I don't want to be that person its just what else am I supposed to do, it seems everytime I try to make a new friend it blows up in my face and I get screwed over. I don't know what I did to make karma such a bitch but it is and I hate every second of it.
Well on to the purpose of this post. There is a boy who I am deeply in love with. I know he is no where near in love with me, but I swear that I am with him. I would go anywhere, do anything for this boy. If there was any way that I could get to Scotland to see him and be with him even for just a few days trust me I would be there, I would see him. I would be with him. Even if this was the only time I would see him I would give him every peice of me, let him do or take anything he wanted from me. He always comes to me when he is having problems with his family, home, girlfriend, and while I sit there and listen and tell him that he is great and everything will be okay there is a pang in me that wishes that I could be there right that second to hug him and hold him and tell him how much I love him and how if I could make the world okay, I would. I tell him I love him, and he says it back but I know that it is just as a friend. Is it bad that I wish singleness on him so that I can have him all to myself and be able to tell him all that I feel without making things complicated in his life. 
I am in love with a man I will never have and may never have.