The A Team

Wow it has been a long time since I have posted. Well since the last time I have posted I have done very well in school I have a high B and A's in all of my courses. I have found and lost love within two months. I am teaching at a local Elementary School and I absolutely adore my kids, they are the cutest most adorable things in the whole world. I thought that by maybe finding someone I could love I would be okay, it was for a little while, but now it just hurts. Tonight was the night that I lost my boyfriend. I love him. I do, but you know those pesky ex's seem to always get into the way and i get screwed every damned time. What's wrong with me and finding someone I like? It seems something is always in the way: they are an arrogant asshole who only wants me for sex, they aren't over they're ex, they live half way across the world, they are too old, their my brothers best friend, what else is next? I cannot possibly win. Not to mention I am a fat cow, who dresses and acts like a dude, who would fall in love with that? I will tell you. No one. No one wants me, no one ever will. People say that's not true but how can I not believe that? I want to change, but I am scared. Who wants change? No one. I want to be the girl walking around campus that all the guys turn their heads to look at because she is just too damn sexy. Well, lets see how this will go oh wait I know, it wont happen, I will continue to get fatter and uglier as it seems I always do.