Just a kiss

I don't know why I feel the need to make all my blog titles song names that mean something. I guess it is because I always resort to music to make me feel better when I am feeling down or to keep my hopes up when they start crumbling. So I wrote this poem last night thinking about that guy that I like here it is:

Since that one day we traded numbers

I wanted to be with you

But no matter what I say

No matter what I do

I can never tell you

I love you

You love her

It’s plain to see

I wish, oh I wish

That you would love me

I text you all the time

I wish you would reply

Please, oh please

Don’t leave my side

I saw a post today

That made me think real hard

I want to help you always

But it seems I can no more

I love you

Oh I love you

Don’t ever leave my side

I want you to be mine

Always only mine

Not that good is it? No I didn't think so either. But it is the truth and it is how I feel. Wow don't I feel like a complete loser always posting about him, but I just cannot help him. I am smitten with him, and just in case you people reading do not know what that means, it means I REALLY REALLY REALLY like him. He is a great guy, and I know he trusts me, and that I think is part of the reason I am so utterly terrified. I don't want him to see me as someone who is going to not want to be with me because I am more like his friend and he doesn't want to lose our friendship. I like him and I want to be with him.

So on to the latest saga of drama. Yesterday SHE broke down crying over something that was completely stupid, why would you do that, and now someone who she thinks is her friend is now sick of her and doesn't want to be her friend anymore. If you're reading this you might know who you are. You're losing all of your friends, and it's your own fault. You caused this, over what? You expect to be the center of everyones world and when your not, you get mad and then those people learn that you're not a good person to be friends with. I'm not writing this to make you feel bad, I am writing this because even though we're not friends any longer, i am afraid that you're going to loose all of your friends and wake up one day, completely alone than you're going to be miserable.